12 21 2020 Lost In The Abyss

                                                     Chronicle of a Cursed Man

I am sticking to the basics.  I eat healthy.  I exercise.  I get restful sleep.

Since both my vehicles broke in the same week, I am waiting for the other attack.

Even though I am overwhelmed with fear, all I have is to keep to the basics.  I want to die debt free.  As hard as it is, that is the goal I am working on for the rest of my life.

It is even getting harder to find relaxing media. It was adding to my stress to pay attention to usa politics.  I no longer pay attention It is the end for the usa.  The weirdos, freaks, and decadent have taken over.

12 20 20 Lost In The Abyss-Ready to give up

                                                        Chronicles of a Cursed Man 

Some one can say  just listen to god and have peace.  I say, what am I doing?  I work to be responsible.  I try to stay physically and mentally healthy.  I keep to my self.

It is obvious to me that even though I am very wise about life, god does not want me to play any part in his world.  Therefore, I should be left a lone to live my simple life.

I had to vehicles.  Now I have two vehicles that are breaking down.  All I did was left one sit for 3 days while I used the other one that did not have problems.  Then the transmission locked up.

When I started the one that was sitting, it sounds like some one is shacking a can of marvels near by.  All because I wanted to fix my economy.  A man my age with all my talents should not be happy with minimum wage. Plus, I just want to pay of my debt.

So with this new challenge, I am not buying another car.  When I no longer have a vehicle, I am done.  I will gather my little stuff an head for the mountains, sorry credit cards.  I tried to be responsible and the creator just decided I need to be punished every step of the way.

I am keeping to the diet and exercise plan.  Still sleeping.  When I am home I try to relax.

Not much to enjoy though, but  oh well.

12 14 2020 Lost In The Abyss

Chronicles of a Cursed Man

The Abyss is moving through life with about any peace love and joy.  The curse is that everything-I not exaggerating-everything goes wrong.  Last week, I was getting majority of garbage orders.  Saturday was the worse.

Again, I was sensing the creator just perched their, doing everything possible to make sure I didn't make any money. I just kept moving forward.  I do not think through things and make plans.

Once, I was a nice person and wanted a enjoyable life like all people.  Now, I just living in the reality of no matter how hard I try "he" will keep attacking me.

I am alive.  I have bills.  I am completely against suicide.  I will keep going forward for as long as I can.

I won't think about things I do not like.  When at home, I will try to relax.

It is going to be harder, now that the USA is under communist control.

12 10 2020 Lost In The Abyss

Chronicles of a Cursed Man

 The   attacks are getting worse. Yesterday, I was getting every garbage order they had in their computer.  I would pick up and therm drive out of my service area, which means loss time, wasted gas, and little money. One business employee was being as obnoxious as possible.  I had to cancel the order.

At my home, the media that helps me relax now and then has been unavailable.  The internet keeps turning on and off.  Over the air TV signals keep going on and off.

The key is to not spin out of control. People do not know that they are being used by dark forces to torture me. I should just stay focused on the good.  I have been playing pleasant and funny movies on my car dvd radio while driving around.  I need the money, but what is going to happen is going to happen.

I have lost all sentiment and respect for the creator of everything.  Yes, it is his universe. However, I have the right to live my simple life my way. All I am trying to do is work and be responsible for my life.  However, it  is like I should go and hide in a cave, because, apparently I do not have the right to earn a living and have fun.

Yes, I am enraged.  However, I do not care enough to reproach any one.  I do know I do not want to live this way.  Today, I will just have to not let IT get to me, no matter how many obnoxious humans I run in to while conducting business.

12 01 2020 Lost in the Abyss

                                                        Chronicles of a Cursed Man 

Yesterday was another day of insanity.  It started with strange orders.  At least there were no problem orders.

Still have this sense that something bad is going to happen in my life. I do not do it to myself.  I do not even have control over my life.  My emotions are not mine.  Many times I do not want to think nor can I think.

For me it is easy. I watch pleasant wholesome enjoyable media.  I enjoy good meals.  I listen to good music.  I keep my self Professionally Organized no matter how difficult people are in life. I exercise and keep to the diet.  I am not trying to live for ever.  I just do not want be some of those old fools that can barely walk and have a million and one illnesses. 

It takes a lot to breath and try to relax. Yesterday, after I finished my business day, I was annoyed and I do not even know why.  My internet was on and off I could watch the media I usually watch.  Even the over the air TV channels were going in and out. Media usual helps me relax because it is enjoyable and I do not have to think.

Lately, I just cannot get in to anything.  I have decided to stop paying attention to politics.  People of USA have just lost all control over their country and the Crazy Dems are going to ruin the nation.

27 trillion dollars in debt and the Dems think that every solution requires more money.  People are suppose to be positive and smart as they use the elements of their environment to build a life.  No ones money belongs to government.  Therefore, governments have no legal right to what people have earned in life.

I understand why people doing everything wrong and lazy, immature, petty, childish, and irresponsible want government to clothe, feed, and house them. A society cannot function when half of the people are forcing the other half to work for Lust for Vices.

12 12020 Lost In The Abyss

 Chronicles of a Cursed Man

I am trying to Chronicle my last days on Planet Earth. This is an exercise of my on personal Crisis Management.

When I had to leave my one car taxi company I had hope and joyful expectation that I would be able to live a better life.  I would focus on the good and look for healthy fun.

Quickly, everything when sour. I have driven to the dark corner of insanity.  However, I try to keep good practices.  I would like Peace-freedom from depression and anxiety, Love-A good woman as a friend and romantic interest, and Joy-ability to enjoy life.

I feel like I should be fighting with everyone while I wait for the next attack.  No matter how hard I try I cannot relax. However, I am not self destructive.  I am keeping to the diet.  Still look for pleasant enjoyable entertainment.  I follow my business standards.

I did have to give up on Americans and USA.  I am to sick to keep up with the status of USA.  I know the Apocalypse has started.  I have even started planning my escape.

I can do the basics as hard as it is today.