9 02 2018 Hardship Trouble Trying To Have Fun

My taxi broke again.  I thought by changing vehicles I would have less stress and anxiety.  About a month ago, my 2010 lost the transmission.

Ironically I was able to fix and insure and older minivan.  On Saturday it broke. I feel betrayed.

I did rage.  It is okay to not be dignified and grace full with this and that challenge.  I am not saying it is okay. God understands and has already forgiven us.

Well, I do have a lot personal work to do in my life.  It is hard not to have bad sentiments, rude, judgmental, crude, proud, and boastful attitudes.

Secular standards harm me and they harm people around me.  Now, I know I have to be godly and accepting and respectful of others.  This does not mean I have to be part of an individual’s sin.

I even have to be careful about what I watch and l listen to as far as media is concerned.  The message is even though it is hard, it is better to do the right thing  I will get my vehicle to a good mechanic and will stop complaining so much.

I guess it was lucky that some one infected me with their germs and I have been to sick to rail against the machine.   People would ask if I trust God to provide. I am so dead.  I do not know life.  I do not know what to pursue.

It is important to keep going forward focusing on what is good and decent no matter how hard things get in life.

Well, I thought I was going to use another mechanic but God led me Pep Boys.  They are expensive but they do the job right and nothing else breaks down less than a month later.

I am not able to get to place were I can start feeling I like I am having fun.  However, it is a good goal to have.