Destroying the USA: Many Degrees of Sins

 There are real evil people.  Top of the list are the murderers, rapist, and thieves.  Then there are the people who spend their time being negative, practicing harsh emotions such as animosity, and attacking others. 

Jesus Christ offered an opportunity out of feeling bad and in to peace love and joy.  He died for the forgiveness of our sins.  Christ is also a good life coach, who bring order to a chaotic life.  All any one has to do is say, “Jesus Christ, I accept you as my Lord and Savior.” 

Unfortunately, many have rejected him.  Many more will reject him. 

Right now, there are insurgents promoting radical theories.  These people work for the Communist and Islamist who want to destroy the USA. There also people with a bad nature who want to take advantage of hard-working people by falsely accusing them of moral failings. Some people hate themselves and want to hold others responsible for the mistakes they have made in life. 

Yes, we are surrounded by our enemies.  Along with these bad people are business people and politicians willing to help bad people destroy the USA.  All regions are controlled by small group of wealthy people who manipulate society by manipulating politicians. 

If you truly believe in God and read His Book then you know everything we are seeing is supposed to happen.  There is not going to be any calming down.  The Inferno leading to Tribulation has started. 

The only thing we can do is prepare for the worst.  We like our lives.  However, if we keep trying to avoid reality and reman in false hope that things will get better, we will suffer the consequences 

Driven Mad‎ Sunday, ‎May ‎30, ‎2021

                                       Driven Mad‎ Sunday, ‎May ‎30, ‎2021

Today, is my first day at this house.  Several days ago I got some bad news from the doctors.

They want my right arm.  It is cancer.  They cannot have it. Yeah, I know they said "It" will spread to the rest of my body.

I just cannot let them take my whole right arm.  That means I have to prepare for the immedicable. 

My plan is to go through illness in this house.  I got in touch with some people and they have sent me some meds with instructions.  One has to be taken once a day.

The bottle is strange.  The cap is gold and the body is black.  

Well, I wrote it all down.  For now, I am very tired and need some sleep.

I have made it up to the bedroom.  Hum, white walls and white sheets, not much creativity here.

How did I get so exhausted.  I think I can get to bed, sit at teh edge, while I get my clothe off and get ready for bed.

It is strange to sit here, slumped over, exhausted, and taking my clothe off. It took awhile, but I am finally in bed.

Have to be on my left side.  The pain is to extreme if I put pressure on the right shoulder.

The anxiety won't let me rest. My mind is tied up.  I want to think, but I do not want to think.

Why I am thinking about being in the room with the doctors. There were three of them in lab coats. One was a women. 

Make no sense to be thinking about them when I trying to fall asleep.  Is that it?  Is that why I reacted the way I did that day?

I remember the arrogance and indignation.  They sounded as if I did not have a choice. 

I did bother me.  It sounded imposing.

Just as imposing as the world I just left.  I can't believe people actually think I have to have dark skinned friends, watch dark skinned Media, support Homosexuality, and all other forms of evil.

Arrogant indignation bothered me then.  It bothers me now.  I am lucky that there are few people in my life.  I never had to encounter any Ugly people asking me why I prefer to be separate but equal.

I have never cared about how people live their lives.  The modern world offers a lot. 

It bothers me that people think I exist to finance their sin life.  No person can be living the Sex and Drug life and stay healthy.  Eventually, the mind and  body will break down.

Then, they go running to government services.  Many try have their "Sin" while living off the tax payers.

I know societies do not last when government panders to the Freaks and disregard the hard working productive members of society.  Those of us who have built a life are very concerned that governments will take every thing we earned with our honest labor.

It is to late.  I need to rest, not have such intense thoughts.  I do not see the large TVs.  I thought I ordered large screen TVs and Internet. 

It was hard to finally get some rest.  I was in bed trying not to feel all those ugly emotions.  Life has not been great up to this point.  Now, with the Cancer, it will end even worse.

I can't focus.  However, I am sure this is my second day here.  Yes, I can here yesterday.  This is the second day.

I am lost in a fog.  I cannot think clearly.  It is dark still.  The sun has not come up yet.

This house has some low light.  Everything looks gray.

Well let me see. I have my three meals planned out.  Of course with the illness Diabetes management doesn't mean much anymore.

I'll stick to the health plan.  Tomorrow, I will exercise.  Today, is about eating well and resting.

I have taken the medication as prescribed.  The arm does not  hurt.  It just feels numb.

Sort of like me. A while back I got some reduction in emotional pain by excepting that I was hurting because I have had so many disappointments in life. 

It explained why I was afraid of life and always trying to be in control.  At that time I decided to just relax.  What is going to happen is going to happen.  Stressing our will not fix anything or stop anything bad from happening.

Now

Apocalypse In The Communist Land Form Formerly The USA

 The conspiracy is composed of:

1 Business leaders who work for satan

2 Politicians who work for these business leaders

3 Communist

4 People who are paid by communist to protest, destroy property, harm people, and kill people

5 Government Security People

6 Judges and Bureaucrats

7 Media Liberal and Conservative

 

It is with out question that the move to Total Control that is needed for the End Times has begun.  It is a mistake to think that these people have lost their minds and are acting out of volatile emotions.  They know the role they are playing in Global Domination.

 

We are powerless to fight them.  Judges, military, law enforcement are on their side.  Right now the right president and right congress is in place to order Marital Law and suspend the US constitution.

 

Our only hope is God, not because we will be safe behind a force field, but because when we die we will go to Heaven.  We have their animosity and irrational behaviors to wards Christians and Common Sense Conservatives.  All the talk about “Whiteness” is just a pretext to imprison Free People.

 

It is going to be worse than anything we can imagine.  I know we can fight back.

 

True survival will come in the Life Crucifixion, Death, and Resurrection of Jesus Christ. Believe in God and ask Jesus Christ to be your Lord and Savior.

2021 02 06 02 54 47 SOUNDING THE ALARM: A MESSAGE TO TRUMP SUPPORTERS

2021 02 06 02 54 47 SOUNDING THE ALARM: A MESSAGE TO TRUMP SUPPORTERS

THOUGHTS ON COMMUNIST TAKE OVER OF USA

 Through out history individuals have been trying to take control of people. Julius Caesar, Alexander the Great, and Hugo Chavez are examples of these people.

Since Barack Hussein a political group, being lead by sick people, have been trying to take control of free people in the US.  Right after the Homosexual community got so called acceptance, their members started attacking Christians and the Christian church.

For those is US government to believe that I have to do what they say is violates my Sense of Justice.  I am a free person.  Government people are public servant and were put in office to act in the best interest of The People of the USA.

It is not in my best interest for government to spend the country into destruction nor try to tell me what I am suppose to feel or think.  Good administrators accept the reality of limited financial resources and live within a budget.  My Faith is a personal benefit and government cannot interfere with my relationship with God.

Government does not give me Freedom.

Government does not give Liberty.

Government does not give me independence.  The laws that they pass have to be consistent with My Freedom, My Liberty, and My Independence.

These members of government are Corporate slaves and write laws that benefit the Cabal of Rich People who control governments.  They could care less if we have to work 24 hours a day, like robots, to pay the taxes needed to run the government.

Conservatives, you were robbed plain and simple.  The Dems and Reps orchestrated a conspiracy of Vote Fraud in order to enslave you.  Even the Georgia Senate seats were won through Vote Fraud.

I would tell you:

1. Be seen every where.  You gave to protest in your area or Washington.

2. Build an agenda a unified force of over 90 million Trump supporters can get behind.

3. Immediately start forming A Replacement Political Party for the Republican Political Party.

Now, Trump and his family may help us.  However, 90 million plus Trump supporters are going to have to do the majority of the work.

We are fighting evil.  We are fighting Communism.  We can fight the Good Fight with dignity and grace.  However, we are going to have to rip power out of the hands of Dems and Reps in government and that is going to come with all elements of War.

I just cannot keep saying the thing over and over and see no action on the part of Conservatives.  I do not want to have to live through attempted communist take over of the USA.  However  here I am with that reality.

My opinion is that there things in life that are so egregious that they requires an answer.  The Communist Tyranny of the political class in the US is so egregious that it requires and answer.

It is the choice of each individual member of Trump supporters to decide if they will go to war against their government.   I can tell you things only get worse from here.  Without  serious replacement of Republican Political Party there will always be Vote Fraud and Communist Control of our lives.  Republicans have shown us that all they know how to do is occupy chairs.

WE CAN ONLY OURSELVES AND EACH OTHER.

12 21 2020 Lost In The Abyss

                                                     Chronicle of a Cursed Man

I am sticking to the basics.  I eat healthy.  I exercise.  I get restful sleep.

Since both my vehicles broke in the same week, I am waiting for the other attack.

Even though I am overwhelmed with fear, all I have is to keep to the basics.  I want to die debt free.  As hard as it is, that is the goal I am working on for the rest of my life.

It is even getting harder to find relaxing media. It was adding to my stress to pay attention to usa politics.  I no longer pay attention It is the end for the usa.  The weirdos, freaks, and decadent have taken over.

12 20 20 Lost In The Abyss-Ready to give up

                                                        Chronicles of a Cursed Man 

Some one can say  just listen to god and have peace.  I say, what am I doing?  I work to be responsible.  I try to stay physically and mentally healthy.  I keep to my self.

It is obvious to me that even though I am very wise about life, god does not want me to play any part in his world.  Therefore, I should be left a lone to live my simple life.

I had to vehicles.  Now I have two vehicles that are breaking down.  All I did was left one sit for 3 days while I used the other one that did not have problems.  Then the transmission locked up.

When I started the one that was sitting, it sounds like some one is shacking a can of marvels near by.  All because I wanted to fix my economy.  A man my age with all my talents should not be happy with minimum wage. Plus, I just want to pay of my debt.

So with this new challenge, I am not buying another car.  When I no longer have a vehicle, I am done.  I will gather my little stuff an head for the mountains, sorry credit cards.  I tried to be responsible and the creator just decided I need to be punished every step of the way.

I am keeping to the diet and exercise plan.  Still sleeping.  When I am home I try to relax.

Not much to enjoy though, but  oh well.

12 14 2020 Lost In The Abyss

Chronicles of a Cursed Man

The Abyss is moving through life with about any peace love and joy.  The curse is that everything-I not exaggerating-everything goes wrong.  Last week, I was getting majority of garbage orders.  Saturday was the worse.

Again, I was sensing the creator just perched their, doing everything possible to make sure I didn't make any money. I just kept moving forward.  I do not think through things and make plans.

Once, I was a nice person and wanted a enjoyable life like all people.  Now, I just living in the reality of no matter how hard I try "he" will keep attacking me.

I am alive.  I have bills.  I am completely against suicide.  I will keep going forward for as long as I can.

I won't think about things I do not like.  When at home, I will try to relax.

It is going to be harder, now that the USA is under communist control.

12 10 2020 Lost In The Abyss

Chronicles of a Cursed Man

 The   attacks are getting worse. Yesterday, I was getting every garbage order they had in their computer.  I would pick up and therm drive out of my service area, which means loss time, wasted gas, and little money. One business employee was being as obnoxious as possible.  I had to cancel the order.

At my home, the media that helps me relax now and then has been unavailable.  The internet keeps turning on and off.  Over the air TV signals keep going on and off.

The key is to not spin out of control. People do not know that they are being used by dark forces to torture me. I should just stay focused on the good.  I have been playing pleasant and funny movies on my car dvd radio while driving around.  I need the money, but what is going to happen is going to happen.

I have lost all sentiment and respect for the creator of everything.  Yes, it is his universe. However, I have the right to live my simple life my way. All I am trying to do is work and be responsible for my life.  However, it  is like I should go and hide in a cave, because, apparently I do not have the right to earn a living and have fun.

Yes, I am enraged.  However, I do not care enough to reproach any one.  I do know I do not want to live this way.  Today, I will just have to not let IT get to me, no matter how many obnoxious humans I run in to while conducting business.

12 01 2020 Lost in the Abyss

                                                        Chronicles of a Cursed Man 

Yesterday was another day of insanity.  It started with strange orders.  At least there were no problem orders.

Still have this sense that something bad is going to happen in my life. I do not do it to myself.  I do not even have control over my life.  My emotions are not mine.  Many times I do not want to think nor can I think.

For me it is easy. I watch pleasant wholesome enjoyable media.  I enjoy good meals.  I listen to good music.  I keep my self Professionally Organized no matter how difficult people are in life. I exercise and keep to the diet.  I am not trying to live for ever.  I just do not want be some of those old fools that can barely walk and have a million and one illnesses. 

It takes a lot to breath and try to relax. Yesterday, after I finished my business day, I was annoyed and I do not even know why.  My internet was on and off I could watch the media I usually watch.  Even the over the air TV channels were going in and out. Media usual helps me relax because it is enjoyable and I do not have to think.

Lately, I just cannot get in to anything.  I have decided to stop paying attention to politics.  People of USA have just lost all control over their country and the Crazy Dems are going to ruin the nation.

27 trillion dollars in debt and the Dems think that every solution requires more money.  People are suppose to be positive and smart as they use the elements of their environment to build a life.  No ones money belongs to government.  Therefore, governments have no legal right to what people have earned in life.

I understand why people doing everything wrong and lazy, immature, petty, childish, and irresponsible want government to clothe, feed, and house them. A society cannot function when half of the people are forcing the other half to work for Lust for Vices.

12 12020 Lost In The Abyss

 Chronicles of a Cursed Man

I am trying to Chronicle my last days on Planet Earth. This is an exercise of my on personal Crisis Management.

When I had to leave my one car taxi company I had hope and joyful expectation that I would be able to live a better life.  I would focus on the good and look for healthy fun.

Quickly, everything when sour. I have driven to the dark corner of insanity.  However, I try to keep good practices.  I would like Peace-freedom from depression and anxiety, Love-A good woman as a friend and romantic interest, and Joy-ability to enjoy life.

I feel like I should be fighting with everyone while I wait for the next attack.  No matter how hard I try I cannot relax. However, I am not self destructive.  I am keeping to the diet.  Still look for pleasant enjoyable entertainment.  I follow my business standards.

I did have to give up on Americans and USA.  I am to sick to keep up with the status of USA.  I know the Apocalypse has started.  I have even started planning my escape.

I can do the basics as hard as it is today.

11 29 2020 Lost In The Abyss Plan For US Collapse

Chronicles of A Cursed Man

 Fear of the unknown will lead to panic and hysteria.  However, there is no reason to fear most people.

Conservatives are cowards and week.  They will not be starting any Armed Revolution.

The Democrat Communist are making it very clear that they are against how conservatives and Christians live their lives and they will be making Oppressive Laws.  The two Senate seats that are remaining will be won by Communist Democrats.  They won the presidency with Vote Fraud.  Why Would they stop now.

This is serious.  It is not the ramblings of a crazy conspiracy theorist.  Hugo Chavez-Venezuela went Socialist Crazy when oil was $115 dollars for the international price of a Barrel of Oil.  The the price of a Barrell of Oil dropped to $45 dollars.  Venezuela could no longer pay for everything it bought on credit while the price of barrel was $115.

Governments messing with elements of economies can ruin societies and nations.  Communist Democrats with their policies will interfere with the US Economy and collapse the US Economy.  I do not blame  any successful business person for moving their company out of the US. 

Therefore, not only will we have to deal with Communist Democrats Oppressive policies.  We will also have to worry about the collapse of the US economy

In reality it is all part of the Global Economy agenda. There have Public Policies all the world that should concern all Freedom loving people.  Under the disguise of Social Justice policies that threaten Freedom and Religious people all over the world.

1. Satan hates humanity and has an agenda against the human race.

2.The rich who own politicians with their Global Economic Agenda are working for Satan and helping him with his agenda.

3. The politicians who are by the rich who run the world have and will make policies that harm people and destroy Freedom Independence and Liberty. 

4. Modern people Morality and Ethics are very low.  Rich, Politicians, and Members of Special Interest Groups can almost get any thing they want.

5. Many people are soft-to attached to convenience of gas stations and groceries stores.  They are afraid of any conflict with government.  They have a bad attitude and bad nature. lack of Morality and Ethics and Poor Mental status are the real threat to US.

I say there are 6 months to prepare for  the end of US.  90 days after Neurologically Defective Biden takes office Communist Democrats will be implementing their Oppressive policies.  This is the time we have to prepare to go live out in the wild. Unless you just want to be persecuted by the agents of the Communist Democrats; i.e military, federal cops, state copes, county cops, and municipal cops.  They are the one who will try to enforce all those Oppressive Laws.  

Yes they will follow orders because they have families that need shelter, food, and healthcare.

On the personal, the stress is getting worse.  I have a horrible sense that something bad is going to happen.  I do not know if something bad is going to happen to me or the World.  I have started preparing to get out of so called civilized society quick.

HAVE A PLAN AND YOU WILL FINE IN WHAT OTHER PEOPLE CALL A CRISIS

10 26 2020 Lost In The Abyss

Chronicles of a Cursed Man

 Yesterday:

1. A women speeding by on my right almost took me out.

2. Ugly natured women in two different restaurants yelled at me " Thank You ! Thank You ! Thank You! Have A Nice Day!  Happy Thanksgiving!" They were not sincere and were deliberately trying to be rude.

3. As usual right around half way in to my shift I started getting the garbage orders.

The last three weeks have been intolerable.  The Horrible feeling of fear and and garbage deliver orders have surrounded me. I am just waiting for what ever attack is going to hurt me.  I am not suppose to have a life or succeed

I no longer meditate and plan.  The truth is he does give people more than they can deal with in life. He is not loving, caring, and helpful.

I just have to keep making money. There is no fun.  Life is not beautiful.  There is no reason to plan or try and have a life. 

This Chronicles were to organize my thoughts and not get completely lost in the Abyss of my fears and depression.

So today, I will just try to not negatively react to rude people and not make any mistakes. Maybe the music on radio will be fun.  I will stick to the diet and did my 15 minutes on the treadmill.

I pushed myself for 3 days so now I can sort of cruse through the remainder of my week.

11 25 2020 Lost In The Abyss: No Conservative Armed Revolution

 

Chronicles of a Cursed Man

Yesterday was a perfect example of my Cursed Life.  I need and want to get to certain financial goal in order to pay off debt.  I was close but the last orders were garbage orders.  I choose one for $10 then after 10 minutes with customer service, the order was canceled.

Now, I realize I let it get to me.  However, It has been death from a million cuts.  I am out of ideas.  I cannot live in my home hiding from life.

I have to keep making money and living a healthy life. I do keep to the diet and exercise plan. Of course my Treadmill would stop working.

I have not completely discussed the source of my Curse. I know and I want nothing from "him".  I don't even want to think.

Now, the crisis in the USA is even worse.  Those who control the USA-a Cabal of Rich People no longer care about basic standards in decency.  These rich people are moving with their Global Control Agenda and have resorted to Vote Fraud to accomplish their goals.

I know the election was stolen from Trump and his Supporters.  I know this theft was done administrated by those who slave to their Corporate Masters and their workers.

There will be no victory in the courts.  They will win the Georgia Senate seats with Vote Fraud.  They have gotten away with it once. Why would not try it again?

All I had on My Agenda was to Relax and Maybe have some fun.  The incident with orders is just one example of constant attacks. Now, I have to deal with all the intrusive, oppressively, and persecutory Public Policies of the Communist Democrats who will have control of the US government from now on.

I live in the USA for people like me it will mean Higher Taxes in order to Give A Free Life to those people who cannot afford the life they built by Winging Life day by day.  They do not plan.  They have bad attitude, bad nature, and Violent/Aggressive tendencies.  They cause themselves a lot of problems and they want all of us to pay for their life.

So, instead of just dealing with my life, I am having to deal with all the Traumas of knowing the Apocalypse has started.  

There is no salvation for the USA.  Conservatives are not going to lead am armed Revolution against their Oppressively government.

So I will have to take what little money I have out of the bank.  I will have to pack my two vehicles with Stuff to survive in the wild.  When the fires start, I will have to make my way to the Wild.

The only thing I can offer as helpful suggestion is make a plan to deal with the Collapse of USA society.

11 07 2020 Lost In The Abyss

 Chronicles of a Cursed Man

Now it realy does feel like being lost in Abyss.  Not only is my life a mess, now the country is a mess.  The issue is not that Fugly biden won.  It is all the bad public policies they are going to pass.

 

1. Immigration open door policy

2. Defunding the military and police.

3. Financing all the Slobs-Fornicators, Alchies/Drugies, Abortionist, Irresponsible people of society.

4. Foreign policy that favors Foreign nations and screws the US tax payer.

5. Increases in food stamps, welfare, government housing,

6. Restarting ObamaNoCare-including the individual mandate.

7. Stopping Trump’s tax cuts.

 

The US has a 30 trillion national debt Crisis.  Fugly does not know anything about Administration.  Administration is management with in a budget.

 

I thought I was going to be able to live out my life trying to manage my insanity.  Now the US has become mexico.

 

Well I am still on the diet and not over eating.  There are no drugs, alcohol, nor fornication. Many people turn to these to deal with Anxiety and Depression.

 

The hardest thing is being out conducting business.  There are a lot of garbage people with bad attitude and bad nature. Of course I do not enjoy any thing in life.  Meals, Music, Entertainment, People do not give any joy.

 

I have not chosen to be miserable.  Life just worked out that way.

 

I am sort of rested.  My goals today are to go and conduct business like a professional.  Thursday I couldn’t think so I took the day off to rest.  It was hard to rest.  However, I have made it to the end of another business week.

 

The reality of Fugly Biden stealing the election with Vote Fraud is demoralizing. Sin has to be denounced and stopped. I am not saying I am innocent.  My sin is private sin and does require financing from the US tax payer nor harms anyone else.

 

People are making children they knew they were not going to be able to afford. Many people traumatize their children.  The people with drugs, alcohol, orgies in abandoned buildings are fighting an inner conflict that will not let them have peace, love, and joy.

 

It would be great if they could keep to themselves.  I believe in separate but equal.  However, many of these Freaks victimize children from good homes by seducing them and involving them in their Freakish behaviors.

 

Everything the Dems are going to do is going to make an even more harsh US by contributing to an increase in People with Bad Attitude and Bad Nature and Violent/Aggressive behaviors.

 

These people want to wipe out White people. I won’t be able to just find some fun to deal with my trauma.  Now, the government will make my life more expensive and I will have to be ready to defend myself against attacks from the Freaks of the world.  

11 04 2020 Lost In The Abyss

 Chronicles of a Cursed Man

 

It was a horrible day.  I was exhausted from getting enough sleep.  That is one of the elements of what I call my cursed life.  When I do not get enough sleep, feel completely exhausted, cannot concentrate, can barely function, and have chest pains.

 

All of this interferes with ability to conduct business.  I am not obsessed with money, but money pays the bills and I want to be debt free before I leave planet earth.

 

My cursed my keeps me fear of what is next. My life is one bad thing after another.

 

I deal with things by meditating on a strategy.  I think of ways to not let the bad things beat me down.

 

I have lost the pleasure from enjoying life.  I just go through the motions.

 

However, this is not a “cry fro me” effort.  I am trying to not get completely lost.  By writing I have to stay in the here and now.

 

Today, I feel that same anxiety. It is going to be a bad day because of the tyrannical democrats stealing “the will of the people” with voter fraud.  I won’t live in a nation controlled by crazy democrats and their crazier supporters.  Time to go to the mountains.

 

I am sort of rested, which means I can sort off think.  I plan to just enjoy the day.  I pushed myself to stay on the diet.

 

Yesterday, on my last order I walked to the house to deliver.  Close to the door I heard a man yelling at the top of his voice in an irrational manner and children crying.  One child sounded like a baby.  The other one was rather small, maybe 3 or 4.

 

The GPS led me to the wrong address. So now I am exhausted, unable to think, have the responsibility of having to deliver the food right, and the responsibility of the children.

 

If I had to get physical, I am to exhausted(physical and mental) to be effective.  I know I have to call the cops.  The man is coming in and out of the house giving me dirty looks.  The customer is on my phone asking about her order.

 

I quickly hit a tail spin in to depression. I was to exhausted to think my way out.  All I could do is limp home.

11 02 2020 Lost In The Abyss

Chronicles of a Cursed Man 

It has been a horrible day.  I was sort of making money.  Then the second half of my business day was one stumble after the other.

 

I have stopped talking to the one.  In addition, I really did not meditate on how to go about my day so the anxiety does not make me make a serious mistake.

 

The rest on my day will be waiting on a business deal, watching pleasant media, and a good meal.

 

All I have is day to day minute to minute.  At least I am concentrating on good ways to survive.

11 01 2020 Lost In The Abyss

 

Chronicles of a Cursed Man

The weekend is always the worst of the challenge.  He weeks anxiety and depression combine to a horrible mess. My day off I spend dazed.

 

Crisis management will be to calm down and pass time with foolish movies.  I am installing a new radio.

 

I will enjoy two meals, Hamburgers and potato salad. I do not hurt my self with drugs and/or alcohol, not mention looking fro sexual adventures to calm the pain.  That would just make things worse.

 

Therefore, my crisis intervention strategy today is to just relax.  I will install the radio I want, do some things around my home, and watch pleasant media.

10 30 2020 Lost in teh Abyss

Chronicles of a Cursed Man 

Today is going to be a very challenging day.  The anxiety is overwhelming.

 

I am just going to have to take it very slow, concentrating on everything I do while conducting business.

 

Yesterday, I just had to deal with the nastiness of one horrible woman. The day was not loaded with anxiety.  There was depression.

 

Good thing is I take Saturday off.  So today, Friday, is for gas and tomorrow is for me.

 

When I used to feel this bad I would focus on fun things to replace the ugly feelings with pleasant ones.  I have gotten to the point where I don’t even rage at the one I consider responsible.

 

I do not care about anything to be upset that every day I loose more.  However, I have to keep making money and paying bills.

 

So today I just have to breath, relax, and not let people get to me. My greatest source of stress is stupid people. If I make money or not, it does not matter.  What matters is that I go to conduct business and I do not cause myself any trouble.